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Thank you for all the love and support. This one is for you guys. It only gets weirder from here.

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released July 29, 2014

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Ali Suhail Karachi, Pakistan

Hi, I'm Ali. I make music in a room in a house in Karachi in Pakistan. In fact, that's most of what I do. I've been making music since I was a teenager, learning from The Beatles, The Foo Fighters, Death Cab For Cutie, Freelance Whales, Pomplamoose etc. These albums that I've written are an amalgamation of my experiences and perception of the world and life. I hope they make people happy. ... more

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Track Name: Bogart
It's all shady and gray
Like a grainy noir frame
Won't you come rescue me
From this grim mentality
Grey and red look good together
Where is my mind?

Do you remember me?
Said the skid marks on my knee
I suppose we had a good run
To which it said spare me the puns
Grey and red look really good together
Where's my mind?

Oh where's my mind
Got left behind.

Wait a minute, what was that?
People living under my hat
Don't seem to have any etiquette
Had to shave my head just to get respect
Wasn't the best decision for December
Where's my mind?

The words are all jumbled up again
It all means the same my friend
(swonk eh ti evah t'now eh sekohc eh
tibar seog ereht ho ,ytilear ot kcab pans)
oh no, that was a different song.

Won't you come back again?
I've lost my way old chum
Can't you retrace your steps?
I ran out of bread crumbs
Why must you grasp so tight to monochrome
There used to be color sometime ago

But gray and red go well together.
Track Name: Railway Uncle
I once had a chat with
A fancy railway man he had
Jewels hanging under his brain

But despite the ornaments
His soul was a parlor trick
With mirrors working overtime to ape

And in his time of solitude
His heart of hearts could come through
It's songs of Broadway-esque designs
Would shine through as the biggest smile

He said,
There's no where I need to run
I don't need to hide under the sun
I was never really here

My mind was always in the stars
Treasuring vicarious memoirs
I was never really here

Maybe there was some pain his
Grief had stillness to blame
While he traversed the globe on his train

Perhaps the sun had dried
All that kept his thoughts inside
Or maybe no vacancies remained

And in his time of solitude
His heart of hearts could come through
It's songs of Broadway-esque designs
Would shine through as the biggest smile
In crystallized unclarity
His soul began to look like all the
Things that I had hid inside
To become what I don't want to be
Track Name: Sufficience
We show our love like anesthetics
For those behind a padded wall
Staring down the barrel
Perhaps to brace their fall

And you showed him reserves
Of your sweet cure
And you say there's plenty to go,
But can he be sure?

Can he be sure?

We traveled all this distance
In our world so grim
We walk all day on terra treadmills
To humor cosmic whims

We use each other for shelter
From waves not seizing to cut through
Despite all we accomplish
We still remain me and you

So why do we still
Trade in our sorrows for charades
Our secrets, still so present
Within the confines of this haze
Where are you rushing
When you're where you need to be
It's nearly over
Why must we outrun our grace?

Moon walking rabbits
In the headlights of a car
A life time in the rapids
Closed our eyes off to the calm

Won't do good to cover your face when
You're falling off the edge of the wall
Youthful indiscretions
Don't mean anything at all
Track Name: Happy Worried Boy
It all seemed so simple just a while ago
Everything fell into place, disengage experience, Compartmentalize existence.

You had such a simple little formula
Broke down the condition, Disinfecting cognition
Such a happy worried boy.

But you did it again, Despite
All the evidence that pointed to the other side
Experiments to stable vital signs
Whatever's working then has gone horribly awry

If science is the key, it doesn't leave out you or me,
Exceptions only prove the need, for newer systems that need to be, in place, to mitigate.

And you can't quantize, All these feelings that arise, Compressions of the human heart, The contrasts of a pie chart, why would you even try?

But you did it again, Despite
All the evidence that pointed to the other side
Experiments to stable vital signs
Whatever's working then isn't anymore...

Detached reasoning is hard my friend
Just take another ride around the bend
Doesn't get any better don't bother to mend
It isn't a mistake if you do it again.

Blind yourself with what you intend
Or crack pot ways to transcend
It'll be funny tales for the bitter end
It's still a mistake no matter how much you do it.

But you'll find ways to justify
Why...

You did it again, Despite
All the evidence that pointed to the other side
Experiments to stable vital signs
Whatever's working then has gone horribly awry
Track Name: Fridge Noise
His sleep broke on his bed
His friends could be alive or dead
He never could tell
If it's all in his head.

Expected no calls that day
So he set his mind in a tray
And we all ate away
Cause it's the only way
And he sings,

She opened her eyes
And letters fell from the sky
Didn't like the words they made
So she took our eyes away
And hid them.

Chaos broke loose, in the city of noose
Cause we couldn't see the lies, that we used to feed the goose
And the children that survived, they fed from their thighs
Set fires to our minds, to get closer to the skies
Coz the floors, our feet, would fry, and the beasts that lurked the nights.
And no matter how we tried, we're all just waiting to...
Track Name: Kuch Nahi
Meri thehri duniya main
ye kaun le ke aagaya
Isko takiya maaroon ya pathar pe hi sonay doon

Iskay khwaab ajab say hain
Mujhko bhi kyun dikhtay hain
Koi parwah nahi isko, ye aankhen band karleta hai

Muun main bohat bheer hai
Shor kardiya hai mere ghar main

Aankhen laal, neeli khaal
Teri asliyat kya hai yar
Aasman ko kyun rula raha hai
Haath pakar, baat kar
Kya ajab hai tera haal
Bilkul ajeeb, bilkul mere jaisa hai

Apni jalti aankhon say
Kyun sabko darata hai
'Gar itna hai bhayanak tou kyun itna khaufzada hai

Bohat shauk hai andheray ka
Ye paani kahan say laya hai
Khoon hai ya aansu hain, tera hai ya mera hai

Raat hai iskay alfaz main
Kis kis ko apnay muun main samaita hai

Muun main bohat bheer hai
Shor kardiya hai mere ghar main

Aankhen laal, neeli khaal
Teri asliyat kya hai yar
Aasman ko kyun rula raha hai
Haath pakar, baat kar
Kya ajab hai tera haal
Bilkul ajeeb, bilkul mere jaisa hai
Track Name: Poor Friends
Come in and have a seat
About time you meet
All of yourselves

There's no need for long debates,
You'll get all the parades
For your mental health.

We've got a 5 star resort
With nothing but remorse
For your troubled mind

And hush, with your apologetic admissions
Unrequited ambitions
You're covered here, you'll find.

Come! Now! There's nothing wrong
Your home was here all along.

Don't you think it's time to move on
We've been at it for too long
I think it's about time

The violin's started to shrink
The offer's started to stink
To your pantomime.

Come! Now! There's nothing wrong
It's time for you to go home.

Hey, Won't you behave?
Put on this face!
The lines on your forehead are wearing us thin
Smoke on this pill
It'll cure all your ills
Quit making it hard to live under your skin.

We can refer you to some colleagues
This wasn't part of our JD
Anhedonia isn't our expertise
Till next time.(It's goodbye)
Track Name: Till Then
The moon is dimmed tonight
From the city lights burning so bright
She said to be grateful
The brightest things have yet to shine
For all the things I haven't left behind

All the burning
The safe chaos
She could never ever find

The nebulous beauty
The stillness of the
All encompassing night..

Oh dear child
I'm no stranger to the nature of your plight
Sweet flake of snow
We're all pulling for you, it's OK to close your eyes
I'll be waiting under the shade of the covers when the madness gets too bright
Until then
I'll keep working on that safe place inside my eyes

Until then I'm dreaming
Track Name: *N T T M W Y O P
I've seen the fray
What's left behind
And in between
You and I..

Stood next to a dimlit window
Staring at the neon curtain'd sky
(can't stop searching
Does he believe still?)
Everyone's living out their purpose
Why can't I begin to even find mine?
(stares at the edge
His wide eyes bewildered)

I got something in my sights
With no proof to say it's real
It's right there beyond the end
Like a kite free of its wheel
Just come to this side tonight
Doesn't have to be an ordeal
I've been waiting for too long
Just waiting to go home..

There's gotta be something beyond it
This circle finds endings far too soon
(can't you see it
There's no way around it)
I've seen mountains appear from nothing
Why can't I make it to where I belong?
(To go home)
We've seen too much
to believe too much

Won't you come to this side
And take me back with you
You don't have to stay too long
We'll just grab my bags and go
I'll do my best not to weigh you down
Just fly me to where you roam
I've been waiting for too long
Just waiting to go home..